Why math? At least, for me.

written by caya

Originally written at Nov. 22, 2000
Translated and modified at Sep. 1, 2006

 When I was in Jr. high school, I really loved math even though I didn't know what it is. (Surely, I love math now too.) With some of my colleagues and my math teacher, we are interested in a kind of mathematcal "insight" rather than math formulae or principles(!). In other words, the "insight" means the ability to penetrate some logical or mathematical problems.

 We organized a mathematical philosophy circle 'the party of stones' and held seminars. (not math!) It was really interesting because of some underlying principles like infinity, abstraction, and so on. I think this activity makes me choose my major as mathematics. Our main activities were:

• observing people as rational as possible
• giving logical meaning to some actions which I am doing frequently
• finding answers about "Why do we need mathematics?" except for exam.

  In my thought, our pursuit was not only mathematics but also mathematcal philosophy. Moreover, we discussed how to approach to rationality as the ultimate purpose. (Isn't it too enormous?) Ironically, our seminars and activities were irrational in some sense. :) In my case, I obtain some ability to contemplate more widely and to keep my brain cool. Hence, it was very helpful and exciting.

I strongly believe that it is worthwhile to devote my whole life to mathematics.
I know there are a number of the tough and painful obstacles to study mathematics.
However, its pleasure and anguish cannot be separated.
I am prepared to experience both of them, and regard it as an axiom, at least for me.